FQS 4(2) Meek: The Place of the Unconscious in Qualitative Research

FQS 4(2) Meek: The Place of the Unconscious in Qualitative Research

What is this wasting time about? If I may anthropomorphize, I think much of it has to do with our minds putting on the brakes, dragging its heels. We aren’t quite ready to do what it is that our work calls us to do. If we are writing, we aren’t ready to put things together in a coherent way. If we are coding, perhaps we aren’t ready to take things apart? I am suggesting this may not be simple avoidance or procrastination. I find it useful, when I am able to remember, that my mind may be conveying the message something further actually is needed. Sometimes—only sometimes—if I can consider the difficulty from this point of view, I can identify another approach. I may need to mull things over a little longer or work for a time in a very different direction from what I had thought might be the next step. I suggest we listen to our hesitations, to what seems like an inclination to waste time, and to try to locate a message from ourselves in them

Oh so that’s what I do, lol - tell that to the LFs when the deadline arrives!!

Winter on narratives in action research

Digging Deeper

A Modernist Aesthetic for Narratives of Research
In summary, the modernist aesthetic may be thought of as embodying a sort of cognitive modesty on the part of the writer, a recognition that the text is both incomplete and disunified, presenting a tentative set of possibilities, rather than an achieved and final understanding. My main argument, then, is that it is the modernist aesthetic (rather than the realistic aesthetic), which is helpful in making the link between reporting research and constructing a narrative, i.e. in addressing the political problem of the textual authority of researchers in relation to the supposedly ‘authentic’ voices of those whose lives they describe, and thus formulating research as an ‘emancipatory’ project.

Winter,R. Educational Action Research, Volume 10, Number 1, 2002, Truth or Fiction: problems of validity and authenticity in narratives of action research
Eve - ever the diligent researcher, found this for me. The whole paper is worth a read. The idea of the greater authenticity of modernist fiction in constructing narrative is one that makes total sense to me. It’s ages since I used fiction in my reflections and I was stunned yesterday by how powerful the insights it brought me were.
The story made sense of my choice of topic for my final year action research in a way that took me by surprise. By rediscovering my voice, or at least one of them :-), I felt energised and able to once more make progress. The feelings of being exhausted and overwhelmed by the task of defending and validating my research are clearing away.
Now I need to dig deeper, to draw out some of the learning from the reflection. I need to do this gently though, I’ve no desire to rip apart my carefully crafted story.
Maybe I’ll start with the story of the story…
The story
Four nights in the past week I dreamed the same dream. I was making an embroidery, beatiful coloured threads sewn on fine white linen. Each time I woke up feeling awful, there was something wrong with my embroidery. It just wasn’t right. My stitches were clumsy or I couldn’t find the right colour. When I woke it was with a sense of dismay and panic.
Yesterday morning when I woke my panic was replaced by a feeling of energy and a single thought. “The Classroom Displays Blog is a quilt” I got up quickly and as I’m on holiday sat straight down at my computer. I took some screenshots of the blog and dragged them into Omnigraffle. I made them into something sort of close to a tumbling blocks quilt. Strangely satisfying.
Then I dragged my old JellyQuilts out of my FirstClass home page folder and put them at the top of a blog post. Then I started to write, sure where the story was going but not how it would get there.
I worked on it all morning oblivious to time. Andy called me up in a chat at just the right moment in the story to provide the link to the JellyArt Movie. I watched it and remembered how creative all that stuff had been. But this time instead of being grumpy about where it all went part of me just thought “OK, let’s take some of that back! It was really only me that was stopping me.”
So there it is - the story of the woman who made quilts. My authentic voice. In it I hear the echoes of Angela Carter and LeGuin, my heroines of old. It’s not great Art. It’s like the quilts, simple and effective, it will keep me warm on cold nights and protect my dreams.

A reflection on personal impact - The Woman Who Made Quilts

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Once long, long ago, there was a woman who made quilts. She took fabric that other people had designed and cut it up, using things that would have otherwise been thrown away. She chose the fabric because she liked the colours or the fabric was part of something that had some meaning for her. Sometimes she made fabric of her own, choosing dyes, making patterns, mixing those with other people’s fabric. She was sad sometimes because other people didn’t value her work, didn’t see the beauty she had seen.
People said -”Well it’s just bed cover. That’s not art, just something to sleep under.”
The woman shook her head sorrowfully. “As if something to put on your wall is more important than what you spread over your dreams!” she thought.

As time went on the woman got sick of people ignoring her quilts. She decided to stop making quilts and try to find another way to share her ideas with people. She went on a course to learn new things but the need to make quilts was still deep inside her. Soon she found herself making quilts from what she had around her once again. This time they were made from light and for a little while people enjoyed them. Other people used the light to make art but she always thought that hers were still quilts.
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Eventually
the woman’s course moved on and the stuff to make the quilts got lost along the way. She wrote thousands of words, made diagrams and videos but always felt she lost something when the quilting stopped.

The final year of the woman’s course arrived and she had to choose something to try to change, something that needed to be improved. She thought for a long time. There were so many things wrong or at least not quite right. Try as she might though she could think of nothing that working by herself she could do about any of them. What she needed was something that she could improve, something that involved the work of others but that was in her control. Her mind went back to her long abandoned quilts. To make them she’d taken stuff that other people had made that was only going to be thrown away and tried to show how it could be made beautiful and useful again. If only she could do something like that now she thought with a longing deep inside. That old ache to make things had never really gone away. She’d learned to ignore it but it still sat there deep in her heart.

And so the woman looked around her and on the walls of the rooms she worked in she saw the beauty in the images created with, for and by, the children she helped. “Such useful, beatiful things,” she thought “yet every few weeks they are torn down and thrown away! And not just here but all over the country, all over the world! I’m going to try to change that!”
The woman had her idea and she worked hard. She used everything she’d learned on her course, and from working with the children, and slowly she made a new thing from the old pictures.

People liked this new thing. They told each other, and the woman , how useful and beautiful it was and the woman smiled. She could see something that they couldn’t.
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The new thing she’d made was a quilt.
Thanks to Andy Roberts and all the Jelly Artists

Stanford Center for Innovations in Learning: News: classrooms of the future

wikiposterStanford Center for Innovations in Learning: News: classrooms of the future
The idea for the poster was based on the children’s board game Chutes and Ladders, which moves players from square to square with occasional sliding past a few squares via a chute. The three stages through which the wiki poster moves are design, implement and sustain, with the last stage providing the biggest challenge.

Instructors can use the poster to help them decide if a wiki is a good tool for a particular class, says Gilbert, who employed a wiki in his course in SCIL’s Summer Institute last year. When the class wanted to quickly create an archive with interesting links students had discovered on learning spaces, they were able to post the sites in one place using the class wiki. Then everyone could visit the links, add their comments and carry on a discussion.

“The wiki allows the discussion to continue after class is over,” notes Gilbert. “It’s easy and flexible and everyone can be involved.”

Ideas for Displays

Ideas for Displays
So I’m collecting evidence of impact and it occurred to me that people linking to the Classroom Displays Blog is pretty good evidence. There have been two new links added today, the other one is in the comments at The Creative ICT Blog.

Exhibition Closed

My research exhibition is now closed. The entry page has been password protected.
I’d like to say a big thank you to everyone who viewed and commented on it :-) Anyone who wants to view it and leave comments should e-mail me or leave a comment under this post. If you have the exhibition on cd please feel free to take the exit survey which remains open. I will move the page of useful links at the end of the exhibition to the school wikispace sometime during the next few days, once I’ve written up the current module.